— (via disorder)
I always heard about people being best friends with their lovers and it sounded idyllic to me. When I finally felt like the girl I had been dating was my best friend, after almost two years, she dumped me. The day after, I realized she had been all along. The. next. day.
Of course I reacted like a piece of shit over following months and ran any chance I had straight into the ground, because I can’t figure out how to be decent. To think she would still be civil to me is wild, even more reason to strive to more like her in some ways… in a lot of ways.
— Eckhart Tolle (via mora-torium)